MemOriES

2006-11-28T04:15:00.000+08:00

it's unbelievable that i'm still up after such a long n tiring day. my eyes are half closed n i'm yawning non-stop but i'm just too excited to sleep. this week's events are gonna be so much fun!

we had grad night today. i was still procrastinating like before, even if it was grad night -_- I went to the mall to get my shoes, which was the only thing that i bought for this event, at like 2+ today. then rushed to buona vista to meet sheron n get our hair n make-up down by hui qin jie jie's mum. it was so nice of her to help us out. n she's so skilled! she did my hair in less than 5 mins! altho i wasnt used to the make-up, i think it'd still be better than doing it myself. but well, i didnt look that bad. i was just a lil.....WHITE. i seriously needa tan. neways, the grad night was ok. food wasnt that gd, but some of the events were, i guess, entertaining? wouldve been funner if there were dancing. but well, this is s'pore, what can u expect? haha..oh well...i couldnt have danced neways, my dress wouldve slit down. speaking of that, isnt the theme supposed to be GLITZ???? i was so surprised when everyone wore black! haha so i was once again, i was the odd one out again. haiiii... haha. ok. soo..i forgot what i was gonna say cuz i blanked out for a sec. oh yeah..if u want, u can check out the photos in my friendster or myspace. i've only uploaded like 3 pix. but i'll upload them after my camp.

yesss!!! camp tmr!! =D
gonna be fun! haha i wont be back till friday. sooooo....cya!

to all my s'pore pals, have a great holiday n take care!!!!
and to my US buddies, muahahaha...have fun at SCHOOL!!! =P

<3 mEi

2006-11-25T00:47:00.000+08:00

i've uploaded some new pix. so go check it out! =)

2006-11-24T21:34:00.000+08:00

i was doing some research on college stuff online while half sleeping when jiow n i started an interesting convo.

so we were talking about something complicated till we came to this:

-娇娇- Happy Jiow :=T_Tyou have less common sense than before
<3 mEi : cuz i'm like...flying.............
<3 mEi : n not using my brain..........
<3 mEi : letting it rest.............
-娇娇- Happy Jiow: when do you use yer brain?
<3 mEi : during o's
<3 mEi : i've used too much of it
<3 mEi : haha so it's malfunctioning now
-娇娇- Happy Jiow : nuh uhhh
-娇娇- Happy Jiow : it malfunctions more than half of yer life
<3 mEi : eh?
-娇娇- Happy Jiow : point proven
<3 mEi : -_-"
<3 mEi : whatever...
<3 mEi : my brain refuses to think
<3 mEi : so watever....i cant argue with u
-娇娇- Happy Jiow : or it has never agreed to
<3 mEi : n how would u know??
<3 mEi : are u me huh?
-娇娇- Happy Jiow : no but being a spectator...yer brain has never agreed to
function to be able to communicate properly
-娇娇- Happy Jiow : hahahaha...this is quite entertaining
<3 mEi : lol it is
<3 mEi : well....as a spectator a yr ago?
-娇娇- Happy Jiow : nope i'm still a spectator currently and if you are referring
to the most recent occurance of which i was in contact with you in person it would be about 5months ago
<3 mEi : yeah yeah..i was just estimating
<3 mEi : i always round up
<3 mEi : =D
-娇娇- Happy Jiow : round a little too up
-娇娇- Happy Jiow : rounded*
<3 mEi : hehe...yeah..as i've told ya, my brain isnt working...
<3 mEi : so cant blame me...
-娇娇- Happy Jiow : and as i've told you...yer brain has never worked
<3 mEi : u're rounding a lil too up too...
<3 mEi : u've been a spectator for such a small portion of my life
-娇娇- Happy Jiow : ok so...for the small portions of your life that i've known you...yer brain has never worked
-娇娇- Happy Jiow :=D
<3 mEi : lol
<3 mEi : that's juz coincidence
<3 mEi : -_-
-娇娇- Happy Jiow : call it whatever you want...but you know it's just mental disabilities
<3 mEi : yeah....A kind of mental disability
-娇娇- Happy Jiow : i have a mental disability oo
-娇娇- Happy Jiow : too*
-娇娇- Happy Jiow : i'm tired but i don't wanna sleep
-娇娇- Happy Jiow : i look at my bed and i wanna jump in it but i'm stuck onto my chair

i'm starting to that she's right....

2006-11-21T16:16:00.000+08:00

woot!! o's are over!!! haha yes..it all ended on the 16th.

i wanted to blog ever since that day but i've never had time. here's a peak at my timeline: =P

16th- went to dinner w/ kerry, our US family friend. she's such a sweet lady. altho we havent seen each other in more than two years, we were still as close as family. yeah..so we went to clark quay, then brought her to sight seeing, went to her hotel. by the time i got home, i was exhausted, but not tired. the first thing that i did was to throw all my books into yi's room. HAHA. i could walk into my room without having to tip toe for once. =D but as i was cleaning up, i started to think about my future, and all sorts of feelings gripped me.
i dont know. i was glad that o's were over, but i was afraid of what was about to come. it's scary when u dont know what's next. i dont know if i'm going to jc, or poly, or even back to the states. it's a very hard decision, and it's not up to me to decide. thankfully, right at that moment when i felt lost, edden called. he reminded me that i'm not going through all these alone. God is walking with me. He'll continue to lead me just as He has led me thru all these years. He's got a PERFECT plan for me. i've got absolutely nothing to worry about. felt much better afterwards, altho i felt stupid that i was so faithless. haha.. but thank God for reminding me. =)

so i slept at 4am that day cuz i was too excited.

17th- my youngest sis woke me up at 730, and i couldnt sleep again. so i decided to visit my nanny. we went to have breakfast together, then i accompanied her to SGH. she looks thinner n weaker everytime i see her. pray that God will miraculously heal her. then at 12+, i went to meet sharon, jovina, n lynette at vivo. n haha, i accidentally saw someone together =P neways, so we shopped for HOURS. went to orchard,then ps afterwards. it was sooo extremely tiring as i've only had 4 hrs of sleep...but it was still fun cuz i got to shop! ^_^

18th-um...oh, sat. went to church, and i was so late for the first time. XP

19th-went to church again. everything went on smoothly. it was funny laughing at those who still had mcq on monday. lol im so evil. but hui yin n i were nice to stay back to help cherlene with her physics. altho it didnt require much energy, i was tired after teaching. but hui yin, sheron, and i still went to cathay to watch step up anyways. haha..there were so many ppl that we had to sit on the first row! it wasnt THAT bad tho. it was just like...watching tv on the bed? haha i loved that movie! that guy is soo hot!!!

20th-that's..oh yesterday. i stayed home the whole day. called pan mu shi in the morning n she gave me some advices. so i started looking out for scholarships n stuff. that was basically what i did for the day.

i didnt get to play my violin till today. gosh...i suck at it! it's soooo hard to gain back all my skills. i couldnt even play the basics! n my fingers started hurting after only like 1 hr. or less. sux.

and....so much for "the first thing that i'm gonna do is to go jogging"
i really needa work out cuz prom's coming, and my muscles are turning into fat. ahh!!! but i'm so lazy. hai...

ok i needa go now. what the ****?!?!? i just got beaten on my face! man..it's so itchy. i HATE mosquitoes! why do they like me so much! gurrr...

randomness

2006-10-28T23:51:00.000+08:00

i'm sooooo freakin bored from studying so i shall start crapping here.

went to bed really last night but had to get up early this morning for chem tuition. then i went to skool, studied, asked mr tan some questions, and had cell group after that. so by the time i got home, it was already 5+. tho it was earlier than usual, i was so tired. when i'm tired, i cant study, so i decided to sleep at like 7. unfortunately, two hrs later, there was like a crazy bug or something in the kitchen. my sis freaked out....then the rest of my family started screaming. the worst thing was that at that moment, yi was practising her new piece, which was quite challenging, loud, and high-pitch. so yep. they woke me up. my ears were even hurting when i got up. -_- i tried so hard to get back to sleep but failed. yeah...it was so fustrating. my schdule was totally screwed up. sigh.

neways...ok. i'm tired again. should i go to bed now? urghness...

2006-10-10T15:46:00.000+08:00

i got this from jiow.... hehe...

1. Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed?
yes..

2. Have you ever seen your best friend naked?
no! X_X

5. Do you like more than one person right now?
no

6. What was the last thing you ate?
S$1.20 cai fan!

7. Did you get any compliments today?
yes

8. Where are you going on your next vacation?
i dont care as long as i can go w/ kat n jiow =)

10. Are most of your friends guys or girls?
now that i'm in 4 faith, i have more gfs.

11. Do you own any furniture from Ikea?
i think so?

12. Do you own any pets?
nope...i'll kill it haha.

13. If you could have one superpower what would it be?
jiow wants to fly to malaysia, but i wanna fly to U.S.! let's switch places altho i'm in s'pore! u can drive there! haha...

14. Where have you lived most of your life?
singapore

15. Why is the sky blue?
it's more like white now.

16. When was the last time you took a long drive?
uhhh...in U.S...when we drove from arizona to texas!

18. What is your least favorite sound?
noise pollution from construction

19. Are you moody?
sometimes?

20. What is your most favorite movie of all time?
zoolander!! haha... and...a couple of others.

21. Have you ever done anything hurtful to a classmate?
i'm too nice to do that! =P

22. Have you ever played Spin the Bottle?
yes

23. Have you ever toilet papered someone's house?
no i'm not that free

25. Have you ever had a crush on your sister's friend?
not her skool friends!

26. Have you ever gone to a nude beach?
no

27. Have you ever gone streaking?
no

28. Have you ever had a stalker?
yes

29. Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
no

30. How many hours a day do you watch TV?
as long as i want

31. Have you ever gone to a party?
duh!

32. Have you ever been in love?
with Jesus!! =)

33. Have you ever been betrayed by your best friend(s)?
i have the bestest friends! so of course not!

34. Have you ever been out of the U.S.?
duh. i AM out of the U.S.?

35. Have you ever thrown up from working out?
no...i dont torture myself

36. Have you ever gotten a haircut so bad that you wore a hat?
no

37. Have you ever eaten 3 meals from 3 different fast food in one day?
yes =D

38. What was the last song you listened to?
survivor-destiny's child

40. Whats one item you never leave home without?
cell phone

41. Who was the last person who called you?
my sis

42. Who was the last person who texted you?
edden

43. When was the last time you slept?
2am

47. Have you ever drank eggnog?
no

49. What are your plans for tonight?
watch tv, then study....the usual routine

50. What are your plans for tomorrow?
same thing -_-"

2006-09-30T21:39:00.000+08:00

so i decided to go to the celebration. it was alright. some people were a lil crazy but i was quite bored. our pathetic table had only sandwiches whereas others had like pizza n huo guo n lotsa gd stuff. but it was funny. i went to my mum's to get her fried bananas. they were delectable...but fattening. after dinner, there was a short play, followed by some games, and then we played w/ lanterns n candles in the bball court where it was dark.for some reason, the glowing candles made me think of U.S., of the bbq that we had in the backyard w/ our youth group. it was one of the best nights ever. being stupid as usual, we tried to blow out the fire -_-" and got dizzy after loosing so much air lol. but it was fun in a very special way. i'll never forget it. then i recalled the missionary trip that we had last christmas, where each of the workers had a candle...it was beautiful. neways, so yeah... tonight was alright. i still feel down tho, which is so weird. i'm beginning to realize that i'm getting more n more complicated, that i'm no longer the innocent me, that no one can really understand me except for God, that...i'm feeling ever lonelier. =/

2006-09-30T17:12:00.000+08:00

i'm so lethargic nowadays. i juz dont feel like doing anything. there's a combined cell group at six today. we're celebrating mooncake festival. strangely, i dont feel like going. for these past weeks, i've been quite reluctant to go. this has never happened before. i used to be so enthusiastic. what the crap. i'm like messed up now. why do i feel like i havent sleep in weeks...and depressed. i think it's partly due to dissapointment. urghness...shouldnt it motivate me to study even harder? it's doing the opposite instead. well whatevers...things will get better.

2006-09-28T22:10:00.000+08:00

i got back emaths and chem results today. i've got only one word to describe it, and that's "terrible." yep. what was wrong w/ me that day? for emaths paper 1, i've lost over 10 marks due to careless mistakes. i'm not kidding or exagerating. i'm dead serious. sigh. oh well, it's over. there's nothing that i can do to change it except to study even harder. o levels results has to be MUCH better than this. yes. it WILL be!

i went to my nanny's place again today right after skool. altho there isnt ac, their house is much cooler than mine. they dont even need a fan. so yeah, i've had a great time there. dinner was gd. i felt pregnant cuz my stomach was so huge. i needa start doing some abs workout again.

well once again, i'm too tired to continue writing. my eyes are half closed. so....gd night ya'all!~

2006-09-24T22:07:00.000+08:00

outline of today's event:

-went to sunday skool, then service
-lunch w/ a bunch of church friends @ secret recipe n ben treated us =)
-shopped w/ ze suan for a while
-went home
-due to boredom, i started doing stupid things like...haha playing w/ cosmetics n taking pix of MYSELF ONLY. haha.
-then went online till now.

yep! i've had plenty of rest today. altho there was nothing interesting, i still enjoyed it. was watching the videos that i uploaded the other day n so i'm starting to miss my violin n my homies! our missionary trip services were SO gd! we played n sang REALLY well. then yi told me that our pix are on chuck's new cd...=) I got so excited. but neways, soooo yeah i'm juz blabbing now...it's ok if u dont read this post cuz it's full of random stuff. oh yeah, i finally received all the pix from kai en's cam so i've uploaded some new pix. go check it out if u're free!

alright i'm too tired to even move my fingers so ciao!~

2006-09-23T22:16:00.000+08:00

yo guyz!

haha today was quite a gd day. i went to chem tuition this morning and realized that i really needa study hard cuz i forgot like everything. then i went to church. we watched the documentary and it was really gd. it is quite scary tho, when u really think about it. look at what's happening in the world. there are more n more disasters, wars, pollutions, and there are more false prophets, and people are getting more corrupted. prophecies from the Bible have been fullfilled, especially during these few years. yes, Christ is coming soon. am i ready? are u ready? will u be ready for that day? times running out my dears.

neways, so after church, i went to visit my "godsis n bro", and my nanny. their house was awesome. i loved the tv...haha i dont need to go to cinemas, their tv is gd enuf. we ate losta gd stuff, and watched two movies- take the lead (so gd!) and uhh...another chinese movie. it was great. i feel bad tho, for the people whom i promised to go out with...cuz i changed my decision so suddenly. i'm so sry! (again haha)

so yeah...it was a nice day overall. tmr's gonna be the last day for me to totally slack. i'm gonna start studying on monday. but i've figured out that it is impossible for a person like me to study so much, so i'll be taking breaks on weekends while muggin during the week. yup! ok i still have to come up w/ a study plan...siighhh..

well i g2 blow dry my hair now so i can sleep. gd night people!~

2006-09-22T15:55:00.000+08:00

ya kn0w what? i juz realised that my date and time was messed up. -_-" It has been over a year n i didnt notice it till last night.

yesterday was quite boring. it was so weird. after i went into the room to read the msg that jovina sent me about my physics result, i started tearing and sneezing all of a sudden. thought it was cuz i was upset over the results. i didnt get what i expected..(only 67..i thought i'd get an A...JUZ for this subject cuz it was like one of the easiest paper.) but neways, it had nothing to do w/ my emotion. for some reason, i caught a cold. felt as if my nose was demented at the end of the day cuz i couldnt stop sneezing.

so due my sickness, i couldnt chill w/ JZ. we were gonna go to bugis cuz i havent been there in ages. but great. i JUZ had to be sick. haii.... i had to leave him rOTtinG there...HAHA.

basically, i was juz sitting in front of the pc for like 5-6hrs uploading all the videos while surfing the net. kat n jiow....i miss ya loads!! i cant believe how american i was n how singapore-ish i am now. sighhh. i needa go back! yes i WILL!!! come n kidnap me! jk. haha.

neways, so yeah...i got a very bad headache in the evening. i ate my dinner then went bed straight away and fell into a long and deep sleep. it was the FIRST time that i could fall asleep in like less than 5 mins! haha...wouldnt it be nice if i can have a headache every night so i dont have to roll on the bed for like ever? so yeah...i slept at 8ish n got up at 6:30AM. unfortunately, i still had a headache probably cuz i've slept too much. so bio prac was almost intolerable. the heat was like killing us. n strangely, i got extremely hungry after i saw the tomatoes. how i wished i could eat them! haha... so the rest of the day was ok slash boring. we didnt do much at skool.

so right now, i'm thinking about what i should do. didnt wanna go out w/ school buddies cuz i was like so tired. thought of going out w/ my cousin, but he has to work. thought of going shopping w/ my sis, but i know she wouldnt go. then i thought of visiting my nanny cuz i havent seen her in quite a long time. i'm a gd girl! but the heat is discouraging me. i juz feel like sitting on my cosy couch and watch the tv. dad's home but he's sleeping so there's no way that he'll give me a ride. but today is the best day to visit her cuz i wont have much time in the future. so should i go or not? haiiii....

well i should stop crapping here n find something more productive to do (besides studying) i wanna play my violin! but dont really feel like getting it out.haha.
ok gonna get out of here now.

later doodz!

2006-09-21T12:06:00.000+08:00

heyy ya!

haha i've skipped skool today again. last night, my relatives n cousins came over for dinner and stayed till like 2am so i wouldnt be able to get up this morning lol. but it was fun...we had huo guo and it was really gd! especially the salmon!!

so i got up at 10 this morning to pee cuz i drank so much soup last night, then i couldnt fall asleep again so i juz got up, washed my face, flip through the magazine that i brought yesterday, then i went to read the Bible. I dont know why, but i begun to tear up as i read Isaiah. all i can say is: God is amazing!! haha... yep! i <3 HIM!!!!

2006-09-20T17:24:00.000+08:00

it's over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yaya!

i feel soooo gd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D
After our last paper, which was like at 10am, jeslin, lina and i went to PS to shop. i ditched my usual gang cuz i didnt wanna play majong -_-" sooo yep..we were basically the only ones with uniform there so some people stared at us as we walked pass them. HAHA. it felt sooo gd to be having fun at the mall while all my other buddies are suffering in skool! MUAHHAHA... so we shopped for hours....till around 5pm (hehe...i can walk really fast =p ) feels as if i've dislocated my shoulder cuz it's sooo sore! my bag's too heavy to carry for such a long time. but i'm glad! i got two nailpolish, and a pair of pants for $33..man...it's like the most expensive pants that i've ever gotten (myself), and some other stuff. it was kool! i havent spend so much money on myself for quite a long time so i'm happy! man! this week's gonna be so much fun!

alright...i'm gonna watch tv again! bai!

2006-09-19T16:58:00.000+08:00

OMGdness!!!!

amaths is getting sooo extrememly boring so i shall stop doing it.

thankfully, we're having our last paper tmr!!! yayyy! i've been really stressed out to the point that i cant fall asleep lately, so i havent been sleeping well these two weeks. it would be nice if my mum would juz let me take one of those pills so that i dont have to roll on bed for hours thinking about formulas, skool, cars, or whatever. lol. but seriously, i think that i'm suffering from insomnia! sigh. it's gd tho, that i've had like 9hrs of peaceful sleep today. for once, i did not dream about formulas or something weird this week! lol.. think it's probably cuz i'm already in a holiday mood HAHA....yaayyy...juz amaths tmr!

alright....this is my plan:
i'm gonna play hard for the rest of the week, then i shall start studying hardcore starting from next week (hopefully)! after sitting for the prelims exams, i've realized how much i have to catch up so i needa start studying earlier. i've learned my lesson. HARD. i shall stop procrastinating. SERIOUSLY. pals, u g2 encourage me!
lol. neways, whoever wants to chill...juz give me a ring or sms me or whatever!

ok it's time for tv so i'm signing off! laterz!

2006-09-04T14:47:00.000+08:00

haha forget it! i'm not gonnna blog too often cuz i'm too lazy =P

neways, i've uploaded some pix (ms yeo's celebration, and dining etiquette). was gonna upload everything, but my parents started yelling at me to get off cuz i was on for freakin 4 hrs yesterday! haha...what am i doing? i really shouldnt be here right now so i shall get off soon.

yesterday was fun tho. it was one of those days when i didnt feel like looking at books at all. haha i saw my cosmetics box so i decided to play w/ it. =D was fun when u put all the make up on ur face, but it's horrible when u have to get it off! especially when it comes to eye liner cuz i used the water-proof liquid eye liner and didnt have the make-up remover.X_X. I was surprised tho, that the eye liner didnt dry up cuz i forgot that i'm in SINGAPORE where the humidity level is like what? 99%? juz kidding. but well, things will never dry up here! neways, so yep... being a self-loving freak, i took lotsa pix, which i had no time to upload. but haha...i forgot too, that i can be pretty PURTY at times! =P juz kidding again. what am i talking about? i'm ALWAYS pretty! AHA! ~dont puke!~ hehe.. ok i shall stop.

well, now back to muggin! laterz!

2006-08-13T20:37:00.000+08:00

HEYYY people! I'm back to blogging again. I NEED to, because as most of you know, I kinda suffer from short term memory. And without my "living diary" (jiow), I don't remember anything that has happened. Yes, too many memories are lost during the previous years, and I can't continue to let anymore of my precious memories flow away.

So I shall start with what happened yesterday.

Although I had quite a long sleep, I still felt really tired throughout the day. And for some reason, I felt so moody from the moment that I got out of bed. Things did not get better as the day went by; in fact, it got so much worse to the point when I felt as if I just got dumped by my boyfriend or something. I don't know, it's a weird feeling. I just wanted to be alone, Iso I left almost right after youth group ended.

Going home might've been a pretty bad decision cuz the moment when I stepped into the house, my mum started yelling at me, blaming me for like everything, like for wiping my wet hands on the shower towel -_- It was dumb. But I remained silent, I didn't really argue with her like what I would usually do.

For some reason, when my cousin came over to print his stuff, I felt much better. We chatted for a while, and then I went on with my hw. At about 8-9pm, my aunt called n told us that they would be coming too. I was a little reluctant at first cuz I just wanted to sleep early and get up the next day to study, but when they came, I became so hyper. We ate, talked, played cards (while I was doing my hw-only finished 4 MULTIPLE CHOICE questions LOL) But there must be something wrong with me because I got super depressed right after they left. I could't fall asleep cuz I simply couldn't stop thinking. There was too much problems. It felt as if everything was going wrong. I felt dumb. Stupid. Weak. Whatever. After an extremely long and emotional conversation with God, I was thirsty and so went to get a drink. When I went back to my room n sat on my comfy bed, two verses from Joshua and Psalms popped into my mind.

Joshua 1:9 -"Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD you God will be with you wherever you go."

Psalms 121: 3-4,7 -"...he who watches over you will not slumber; indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. The Lord will keep you from all harm-he will watch over your life."

I felt a thousand times better RIGHT AWAY. It was amazing. I was like....what the? What was those worries and fuss about? Haha...yes! What do I have to worry about? God is watching over me. He's with me 24/7! He has a plan for me! And He knows what He's doing! So why was I so troubled with all those things? With that, the burden was lifted off my shoulders and I went to bed peaceful and joyfully! Lol...n even with a SMILE!

I luv GOD!!!! Lol...He's AWESOME!

haha yep! well...it's quite late. i better go to bed! Gd night ya'all!!!

2006-06-11T16:51:00.000+08:00

hehe...i'm posting ya all!

this break has been pretty gd so far...especially during weekends cuz i get to c my US buddies! well haha this weekend was pretty gd too...i miss my true grace gals! haha... but it really sux that i still have to come back for skool -_-.....yes skool during break. y do they call it break/holi then?? neways, no i shall still be thankful cuz at least i can see them!

muahahhaa....the retreat starts tmr!! yaya! it's gonna be so much fun! i cant wait!

oh crap...sis needs to use the pc...

well one thing before i log out...

haha i've already got tagged like 3 times so i'll juz do it since it'll take less than a min cuz i've already thought about it already...haha..for like ours! AHHH...i miss our girl talk! neways...here:

Instructions: state 8 diff points of ur ideal lover. mention gender. tag 8 others to do it.

#1 Christian. yep...it's a MUST =) n he has to love God more than anyone or anything! yep!
#2 Taller than me. Dont worry...it's not too hard haha.
#3 Athletic. (Must have 6-pack...yep!)
#4 Gd-looking. -_^
#5 Musical (best if can play piano or violin n_n...or drums or guitar?...idk. juz musically talent lol)
#6 Sense of humor.
#7 Responsible, caring
#8 Gd relationships w/ ppl especially family.

there r much more but these are the more important ones that i can think of. haha guyz...=P !!!

2006-05-21T17:51:00.000+08:00

sooo... no countdown for this yr huh?

yep.

or..juz a one day countdown? -_^

haha.

yes...tmr's my bday!

hmMm..it's so weird. i'm not looking forward to it. in fact, i dont want it to come. i'm scared...of...i dont know how to explain it. but..this year. shouldnt it be a sweet 16? y am i not excited?

i'm juz so exhausted now. k time for my nap. laterz!

2006-05-14T17:49:00.000+08:00

oh my gdness. that scared the *** outta me.

my heart juz stopped. then it started pumping so fast as if it was gonna jump out. oh no. what's wrong w/ me? am i sick? what the? n why am i so lethargic recently? do i have diabetes or something? i'm kinda getting fat too. am i not? maybe it's cuz i sleep right after my meals or that i dont exercise as much anymore.

ahhhHh...

2006-05-14T00:14:00.000+08:00

haha just kiddin! i'm still not tired so i'll continue to write.

wow. if my sis didnt remind me, i wont even know that my bday is next week!! @_@ time flies!! gdness. ahhh....u know how bad i wanted to be 16? but now, i dread it. how i wish time can stop. ya know it's supposed to be SWEET 16? well i'm gonna have to celebrate it w/ loads of CHINESE books cuz chinese o levels is EXACTLY one week after that. sigh. haiii...how sweet. geez...time really FLIES. 29th's the day when we left US for gd. can u believe it? i've already been here for a year! ahhH! n what have i accomplished? oh yeah...dang my bday's almost here.

i wrote my goal in the notebook that me n kat shared. it was to be able to replace my name w/ LOVE in 1 Corinthians 13:4-7:

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Did i accomplish it? Not really...i'm still pretty impatient, not too kind, pretty proud, rude to my parents, get fustrated easily. but well, i know i've improved quite a lot since last yr. but i still have a lot to work on. yeah...well i still have one week. soooOoOo...haha...

well i needa sleep now or my mum's gonna start yelling. sooooooooooooooooooo GD NIGHT! oops. i meant GD MORNING!! haha..well, GOD BLESS ya all!!!

~mEi~

2006-05-13T23:20:00.000+08:00

yaya!

exams r finally over! it's not like i deserve a break right now, but i'll juz take it neways haha.

hmmm...these few days have been pretty gd.

after the last paper on thursday, i went home, went online, annnnd....i talked to kat! haha technology is soo advanced nowadays. talking in front of the pc is soooo much betta than over the phone. it's free and u can see each other! haha altho...i felt as if i was talking to the wall cuz she didnt have the mic. but it was kool.
then at night, my cousins came over and we were juz chillin till. ooOoo...and we had sashimi!!! from sushi tei! was delectable! =P then watched a midnight movie till 3. man...was fun!!

friday... practiced violin in the morning and went to violin lesson at 3. haha the statement that my teacher made has kept me happy for the day, but more importantly, it was a great encouragement. i admitted that i havent been practicing for a few weeks cuz of exams, but i've been practicing after exams for like 5 hrs total be4 the lesson. haha then after the lesson, he was like meixuan, you can actually play very well. u didnt practice but u still did pretty gd. u jst need to put in more effort and u will be a great musician.
i was like woaa... ever since i came back, i've been getting worse cuz i dont practice anymore. used to practice for like 2 hrs daily, well almost. n i absolutely LOVED violin n was really passionate about it. but i dont know why, after i came back...i stopped practicing. i was no longer motivated anymore. i dont know why.... i guess it was cuz of all the things that happened during that period. so i've been telling myself that i suck at it right now. n i really do. i mean, if u've heard me play, if u're from my church, if u went to the gd friday service, u'll know. man. i've NEVER had stage fright before, but recently, i've became super nervous when i go on stage so i couldnt play well. why???!?!! urgh!! it really sux. i guess it's juz i dont go on stage as often anymore. yeah..then sometimes, when i see my violin, when i thought that i should practice, i dont know why, i'll get goosebumps, n fear will slowly creep up. ya know that kinda feeling? it's hard to describe. but oh well. after what my violin teacher said, i was really encouraged. ya know what? i can do it! God has blessed me with such a talent and i cant waste it! i should put in mroe effort shouldnt i? yep!

neways, after that we went shopping for like 5 hrs. n wow. guess what? I DIDNT BUY ANYTHING. ANYTHING AT ALL. yes. arent u proud of me? i didnt get anything after shopping in far east!!! haha well it was cuz i was sooo tired. but my aunt got a really really really super cute purse, which she said she'll share w/ me. haha i have such a gd taste! she wanted to get it for me, but it was so expensive, so i didnt want to accept it. then, went over to my cousin's place for super.

today, went to church. had a farewell party for ji xian dao shi. he must have been really touched. yep. then went shopping w/ sheron, cherlene, n my sis. bought a scarf for my mum, and some shirts. was pretty fun. then came home at around 10, and went jogging. think i'm sick cuz i had difficulties breathing. think i caught a cold cuz i was walking in the rain yesterday. but oh well, it's not too bad. at least i'm still alive. haha. well i g2g. i've got so much more say. but too bad. it's late. haha....buh bai!

2006-04-16T17:39:00.000+08:00

i'm so exhausted...dont even know why. dang. i'm mad at myself. kept telling myself to spend time wisely but i just couldnt resist temptations. i've totally wasted my weekend...on NOTHING. yes, what did i do? eat, sleep, watch TV, stare at the ceiling, go online...basically nothing productive. well, at least i went jogging on both days, n did like 2hrs of hw altogether. what the crap. the schdule that i planned was totally just a waste of time n energy. why even bother planning when i can never follow it?? sadly, ever since i came back, i've never really followed my plans. perhaps it's cuz i kinda..go beyond my ability? or juz cuz i'm usually too lazy n tired when i'm free? i dont know. but it sux.

i dont know why i'm writing in here. i've been feeling weird lately. no. not juz lately. i've been feeling weird ever since i came back. i never know my feelings, whether i'm sad or happy. what's wrong with me??!

ya know what? i should stop talking crap. think i'm just too tired. yes i am. i should just go take a nap n read the Bible.

signing off~

2006-04-09T16:46:00.000+08:00

i have more friends than ever, and i'm more popular than ever. yet...i'm feeling so lonely. what is this?!?!?!?!

2006-02-14T15:57:00.000+08:00

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs...It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always persevere."

~1 Corinthians 13:4-7

HAPPY VALENTINES!

2006-01-09T20:16:00.000+08:00

ok...so haha i'm too lazy to continue from the previous post. there's WAY too much to say n i've got it all written down in my "diary" so there's no point writing it here again.

overall, the missionary trip was AWESOME, tho it was more like a vacation. in the beginning, working w/ chuck hong in china was almost tortorous we got yelled at SO much. but as we practice more, we got better, and so chuck got happier which really makes life easier for us.haha jk. honestly, i've nvr had so much pressure when practicing or on stage playing. n chuck..gosh..he spots EVERY mistake! well duh...he wrote the piece so he should know it really well. but thank God that after all this, i did improve and also realize that i have SO MUCH to work on. n charmaine really inspired me. i'll be as gd as her one day! or even better!

GOd just loves me SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much! He knows my needs n juz about EVERYTHING! it was great that i could go on a trip w/ my homies again! we've had muchos fun together....the boy craze (not really me) haha...mr. security, me n kat's workout (shopping).yeah.we run. LOL, sharing clothes, n uber fun girl talks!! esp on the last night n morning. we beat our previous record! lol we were chatting till around 5+ - 6AM then me n kat juz went crazy then passed out immediately cuz we seriously used up ALL of our energy. yeah we were gd gurls...cuz we couldve juz stayed up the whole night n morning talking n sleep at like 9am, then miss my flight back here! then i could go back w/ em! that would be so kool! neways, yeah, and all the other stuff....like fights w/ ming lol

my gosh!....there r juz SO much things to give thanks about.

but now...back to skool -_-"
the death yr.
g2 deal w/ all the stress,
pressure,
n all those craps.

siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....................

but it's ok. time flies. soon, i'll be back. i WILL. hehe... alrighty, signing off. GOD BLESS YA ALL!

P.S. kat, if u ever read this, send me the pix asap thru gmail or something!

2005-12-26T23:33:00.000+08:00

editz-

ya know what? i've changed my mind...i should type it out be4 i 4get haha.

soooo we went to china, lan fang ah yi's factory. i'm too tired n lazy to write it out so here it is in point form haha:
-serious air pollution (no wonder the buildings there were so old)
-had a tour in the factory. poor workers. i learned to appreciate what i have n to stop complaining. how do they sit on those stools 4 like the whole day doing the same thing? n their dorms....14 ppl to a room. sux!
-jiow kat n yi going crazy about fei...mr. security guy. gotta admit that he's pretty gd looking (kat: u mean VERY GD looking) tho haha. he looks like that one actor whom i dont know his name.
-experienced chuck's wrath! gdness...so much pressure when practicing n the ppl that he hired...made us feel like we dont needa be there
... ...
-went to ye shi n spent soooo much $$$ in so lil time! $60-70+!!! dang... but it was fun!
-went to eat at the business class lounge...was pretty kool.
-took a pic w/ the taiwan star at the taiwan airport..4got his name too lol.

~YA KNOW WHAT? MY EYES R MALFUNCTIONING N I'M STARTING TO MAKE A LOT OF TYPOs..w/out kat here editing, u wont understand what i'm saying haha. sooo i shall go to bed.

to be continued...

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no one ever reads this now huh? so i wont post till i get back hehe...

there's juz way too much to say.

but u guyz, pray hard 4 us!

2005-12-14T16:32:00.000+08:00

goooodness!!!!!

the electricity is finally back!!

i have been soo freakin hot, bored, tired, and lazy today. all i did was play my violin, do devotion, and juz lay around. we had no fan, no light, no nuthin. even the phone didnt work. my mum wouldnt let me go out cuz she wanted me to pick up my lil sis from her tuition. i almost went crazy haha. but well now everything's back to normal!

neways, 6 days till i see my best buddies! ahhhhHH!!!!!!! i'm sooooo excited!! hehehehe.... but nervous cuz my music is not here yet! pls pray that it'll come VERY soon cuz it would be impossible to prepare in such a short time!

ok i'm too lazy to write haha. gonna watch tv now. later!

btw, want anything from china or taiwan anyone??

k nvm...the show juz ended =_=

neways, hehe...here's my wishlist 4 christmas:

1. mp3
2. sunglasses
3. earrings
4. see my U.S buddies!!
5. slim down haha
6. get more clothes (esp skirts)
7. cosmetics (not like i need it here..but juz in case cuz mine's already running
out...especially my eye liner n mascara)
8. perfume/sprays
9. shoes, flip flops
10. jewelries

yahh...that's it haha.

but HEHE i've already gotten the first 4! YESS! my parents got me an MP4!!! thank GOD! n kat got sunglasses n earrings n edden got me earrings n some other stuff too. AAAAND muahahaha!! i get to see my US buddies! it's like the best christmas present! ^^ GOD LUVS ME! hehe....

yeah..half of this list is like the same as last yr's but i still want it!

hehe...

but juz a reminder: CHRISTMAS IS NOT ABOUT PRESENTS. IT'S ABOUT CHRIST'S BIRTH!!

alright, gonna get off now. BUH BAI!

~GOd bLESs~

2005-12-06T16:37:00.000+08:00

the camp was sooooo much fun!! y does it have to be so short? i'm already missing it!

the first night was great. we had bbq then went to the night walk. it was freakin dark. we couldnt see anything except 4 the mud path n was walking really slow. it was thru that activity that i learned how to treasure the light. yes Jesus is the light of the world! how great is it to have the light? neways, was pretty hilarious when we were trying to scare the girls that were way behind. cherlene screamed so loud when edden jumped out from the bushes that ah nei said he could hear it even from the beach lol. we stayed up till around 2 watching stars n juz hanging around. i couldnt sleep at all throughout the night. i kept waking up like every 30 mins. then it started pouring at 5. everyone was like screaming cuz the wind was so strong. n the guyz who slept outside..poor em...had to cover all the stuff n squeeze into the other tents. n haha the poor girls sleeping in the other tent had to find shelter w/ the animals n sleep there! their tent was like totally deformed cuz they didnt have the cover sheet. we had to sleep like one in each corner to prevent out tent from falling...was so uncomfortable. what made it worse was we had to bring in our wet shoes n pile it in the middle of our tent. it was disgusting. but thank God that at least remembered to bring it in. or we'll have to wear soggy shoes 4 the rest of the camp. n thank GOD that it was becuz if that storm that the day was much cooler.

neways, 2nd day was the best. we had the battle of the sexes haha. breakfast was fear factor which the loser can only eat worms w/ bread n plain water LOL. was HILARIOUS...thank God i won. but the worms didnt taste THAT disgusting. it was actually pretty gd haha. later, we had toppo (find the checkpoints) which we walked n ran like crazy,ultimate freezbi(however u spell it), the "wo xi ne ae lao boo" game LOL, etc. then our lunch was gross. had raw carrots, tomatoes, oranges, red apple, green apple, bannana, what else...well i dont remember. rules were we have to feed each other, if the food drops, we'll have to pick it up n wash it n continue to eat it, if the fruit wasnt clean enuf, they'll pick it up from the trash bag n make us eat it!(which they did cuz we were leading). such a gross but healthy meal. evening....was the first time that i feel hunger. was totally starving n thirsty. it was weird. haha i didnt pee all night. kinda a gd thing tho. i cant stand the toilets. it's those squaty potty n u cant even flush it. it's full of insects n disgusting used toilet paper etc. felt sooooooooo extremely refreshed n hyped up after i took a shower. it was the best feeling EVER. seriously, after not showering 4 a day n after sweating so much that i didnt needa pee even when i drank so much water. then dinner..had a guessing game when u needa guess what's in the bag. they put frogs, lizards, turtle, half-dead crabs, n stuff like that in it. was disgusting. but fortunately, i got the non-living things. then we had a fashion show contest. OMG...was like one of the best games. i laughed so hard that my cough came back. edden was HILARIOUSLY disgusting, n scary. i'll post the pix sometime... haha..was a PERFECT halloween costume. it was sooo mcuh fun! then while i was washing off the paint n cleaning up, he rubbed his face on my arms n made my clean shirt dirty. but it's ok, i got my revenge haha. hmm..then li rong...haha he was like doing push up while cleaning his whole top. it was the first time he had an 8-pack LOl. poor models...haha...they had to shower twice.

after that, we had supper n juz hung around. the guyz were playing some games n whoever loses g2 eat the leftover food. they were going crazy. n yixuan...she's ALWAYS the first one of our group to sleep no matter where she is n where she goes....piiig. neways, i stayed up w/ the guyz being their torch stand while they play uno LOl. was funny tho. so dumb...but hey, that was the only cards that we had.

neways, i havent had so much fun since i came back. it was awesome n i REALLY enjoyed it. haha burned off lotsa fat. but most importantly, we learned how to become more cooperative, take care of each other, n to create a better bonding. n thank God 4 the great weather!

dang...i miss it soooo much!!

but muahahah.....2 more weeks be4 the missiionary trip! be4 i get to c my US buddies again! ^^ i'm sooooo excited! but kinda worried cuz the break's coming to an end soon n i dont have much time to study. i needa use my time wisely 4 the remaining weeks.

wow this is a long post. gonna go clean up now.

GOD BLESS!

<3 mEixUAN

2005-12-03T12:30:00.000+08:00

how should i start this post? yes by using this question haha.

hm...so much has happened that i'm still unable to catch up. neways, i dont even really remember!

soooo i went to zps chalet on wed. was pretty boring..actually was really boring. juz talked n ate some food. but at least i get to chill my ex-classmates. but i kinda felt inferior when among them..especially when they were talking about their skool n accomplishment. i almost started to regret going to america. so many ppl were asking me y i went to phs 4 the past few weeks! but thank GOd i didnt. DOOD...what is there to regret? i would SOOO rather give up my gd grades according to s'pore standards or "gd" skools then to miss the BEST parts of my life! there's is NOTHING to regret about! going to states is the best thing ever! so far...haha. n it's all in GOD's wonderful plan! so who cares about what other ppl think?!

yep... neways, after the chalet, which was like at almost midnight, i had to wait ALONE outside the mrt 4 my uncle to pick me up cuz my mum wouldnt let me go w/ my frenz! i was pretty scared cuz it was deserted..n was pretty pissed. but when i found out what happened later i felt bad that i was making such a fuss. my poor dad. poor mum. haii it's a long story so i'm too lazy to tell ya what happened. but pls pray 4 them... n my grandpa..found out that he has cancer..

neways, yesterday was one of the best days..altho still pretty depressing when i was listening to my mum's conversations w/ my aunt n uncles. i went to PS 2 do hw n hang out. hehe...was pretty fun. then went to prayer meeting, then supper w/ a bunch of church frenz! muahaha... ate stingray, sotong, n the fried oyster thingy. it was delicious!!!! haha dont be jealous. yes...havent stay out eating w/ frenz in such a long time! but got yelled at when i got home. oh well...it was worth it haha.

crap...i 4got to keep watch of the time.

haha i'm soooo excited 4 this month's events!!

here's part of my busy schdule:
wedding later at 3.
shopping 4 camp stuff.
titus survival camp from the 4-6th!!!
chalet from 7-9?
tuition. -_-
hardcore studying n practicing violin n prepare 4 the missionary trip the week after.
then finally MISSIONARY TRIP w/ TCMC till the JAN 3!! (i'm sooooo freakin excited! haha cant wait to see my US buddies!! n serve GOD together! again!)

soooo yeps. i'm gonna be super busy!

aiite...i g2 prepare 4 the camp stuff n wedding.

GOD BLESS YA ALL!

<3 mEiXUAn

2005-11-25T21:35:00.000+08:00

what a long n tiring day!

i've been doing so much math and getting so many math lessons these few days. i betta get an A1!!

life is pretty stressful at this point cuz i realized that i only have 2 weeks left! geez...how am i gonna catch up?? i've been wasting a lot time without even noticing. i'm juz so used to the american life/break. s'pore's break is not much diff from a normal skool day except u dont get to see ur frenz. it's as boring as usual..or even worse. i would rather have skool than to be stucked at home n study myself in a room full of books n cupboards...or...juz to waste my time doing useless stuff. but it is ok. juz 2 more weeks n i'll be FREE! well not really. i'll nvr be able to truly enjoy my break till after o levels. suux.

neways, guess what? my cell phone is confiscated FOR SURE. y? i've been msging too much. yesterday, my dad got the bill n guess what? i've sent over 900 sms n we only have 200 free ones which means i've exceeded by 700+ sms!! n that's only 4 last month. i think i've sent more this month. someone pls save me!!

but hey, cant blame me. i used to talk on the phone 4 like at least 2 hrs per day. i CANNOT survive if i dont talk to anyone.

haiii i feel so weird w/out the phone. oh well, maybe it's a reminder 4 me that i needa concentrate on my studies. honestly, it has been a distraction haha...so i guess it's kinda a gd thing that it's taken away? weeelll....g2 at the bright side...^^

ok time's up...
BUH BAI!!!!

btw, i've updated the missionary trip pix!! go check it out!!!

2005-11-22T10:42:00.000+08:00

haha i'm posting jovina!

hmm.....it's finally holiday now! i've been slacking a lot tho i'm supposed to be studying hard core catching up. i juz dont have the strength to do that. it's like everytime i open up a book i'll start daydreaming. but dooooood it's BREAK! i'm supposed to have a break! w/out feeling guilty!! urgrrghhness... well this is s'pore life. g2 get used to it. -_-"

neways, sux...my mum took away my cell n gave it to my sis while i was talking on the home phone w/ edden. sheesh...hate it when she doesnt trust me. stupid. she's still nagging right now.

yeahh...but these few weeks have gone by so fast w/out me knowing it. i didnt do as i planned so i'm way behind my schdule. hope that i'll get my ass off n start 2 hardcore study cuz i really dont have time left.

let's see.....4th-6th of dec-TITUS CAMP
5-8th-CHALET??
20th-3rd-MISSIONARY TRIP
sooo...basically, i'll only have one free week in dec. oh gosh! i'm dead. ahhh!!! ok i'm gonna go practice my violin. so buh bai!!!

GOD BLESS YA ALL!!!!

2005-10-29T11:38:00.000+08:00

haha i'm posting again!

soooo continue from the previous post....

yeah life after exams is AWESOME...so relaxed. stress-free. = )

soo last friday went to the mall w/ a bunch of frenz n watched flightplan. was an alright movie..not that great...n very predictable. but well had fun tt day! took neoprints...n the machine that i used was probably the best one so far haha. we g2g there n take more nxt time!

then what else? man...my memory's failing...idont remember anything. uhh...oh sat..went to upper pierce 4 cellgroup. was fun...haha had to walk to the prata house from there under the scorchin sun... drank like at least 3 cups of water (coffee, milo, tea) hehe..glad i didnt get stomache after that. uhh..then went to church n accompanied edden..or should i say distract him from studying? haha..whatever... then watched the worship practice...n started thinking about our band in the states. i <3 the 1st song that they played...which was the 1st gd song that me n kat soloed.

then sunday...hmm..nm...at least frm what i remember... oh went to suntec w/ family. right? id remember.. oh yeah yeah. yes..i was right. wanted to get a skirt that day cuz it's was 50% off!! it was soo cuute! really regret not getting it. haiii...

then this week... skool was boring. did absolutely nothing. teachers were gone. shouldve been really fun but our class..haii..well we did play cards..break a few rules... well actually staying in class was alright but going to the hall man... my butt hurt like crap. hate sitting on the floor 4 such a long time! then after skool, went to friend's house almost everyday or stayed back. uhh..edden's...LOL he had to paint his room pink cuz of the feng shui shi or sth! was hilarious...it's actually quite nice..would be PERFECT 4 a girl LOL.... poor him. n went to sharon's house..haha FIRST real HOUSE that i've been to so far in s'pore. then practice 4 the audition. then yest had the audition. we did well considering we've only practice altogether less than 3 hrs. n she got the music only a day be4 n i've stopped practicing 4 like 3 months. thank GOD so much 4 this opportunity cuz i finally have the motivation to play my violin n was encouraged by ppl's compliments. i thought i totally suck now but haha maybe i'm not so bad afterall. so yeha..gonna practice more. decided to practice w/ sharon like at least once a week, n jam w/ church frenz. hehe...gonna be fun!

ohhhh n what's greater is...haha our US worship leader wanted me to join them on a music mission trip this dec!!!! i'm sooo excited! hope i'll be able to go!!!

n wang mu shi's coming next wed so haha g2g get some gifts. hehe free shippin. sooo my US buddies, tell me what u want asaP!!!!

alright i g2g clean my room now. sooo bai!!!

<3 mEixuAN

2005-10-27T21:43:00.000+08:00

haha i havent post in such a long time.

hmm...let's c...where should i start?

k exams..
thx to God's mercy and grace, i only failed A MATHS overall. i was sooo surprised cuz i didnt try hard at all 4 the end of yr exams. idk y, i juz couldnt concentrate when i study n i procrasinated. but i confessed n asked God to forgive me n promised that i will nvr do that again. n indeed He has shown mercy! thank GOD!! hehe..so yeah..i will start studying.

sooo 4 the past few weeks life has been great. it's absolutely stressless. hung out w/ some kool ppl..was fun. n uhh..skool's alright. boring. but at least we could do almost whatever we wanted. but today haha missed the bus so was late to skool. but thankfully, the marshals unlocked the door 4 me. but man...the volleyball game...we got trashed TWICE. so embarassing. oh well. then went recess w/ lynette 4 like 2 hrs haha. hehe yes we skipped class. but when we went back, more than half the class was gone. then went to sharon's place juz now to prepare 4 the audition tmr. hope we'll do well!

yeah..mum's yelling at me to get off right now...so too bad. post nxt time. GOD BLESS YA'LL!!! BUH BAI!

<3 mEiXUan

2005-10-13T12:26:00.000+08:00

jiiiow....u know u'll NVR be replaced!!! i still luv n miss u guyz sooooo much!!!!

i finally touched my violin after months. yes i play extremely horrible now. sux. it brought back so many un4gettable memories which made my heart ache. how i long to play n practice w/ u guyz again!!!!!!! it made me think about u guyz the WHOLE night. ahhh!!! i wanna see u guyz soooooooo baaaaaaad!!!!!!!!! yea betta call me or visit me soon!!!!!!! ha my goal is to go visit after o levels next yr, which is at the end of nov or dec. yes...so hurry n get ur drivers license so u can drive me around! hehe...

neways, nm to say. yesterday was boring. juz stayed home. but actually wasnt too bad... ihad a great rest. n lol msg so many ppl esp edden soooo much! i counted....sent AT LEAST 60 sms yesterday! man..hope it's free...or my dad'll kill me!

well g2g prepare 4 bible study... so cya!

<3 mEixuAn

2005-10-11T20:12:00.000+08:00

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm so incredibly hyper today!!!!!!!!!!

exams r finally over!!! THaNk GOd sooo much 4 His grace n mercy!! i promise that i WILL not procrasinate again!

last night i was extremely tired so i went to bed early n planned to get up early this morning...like at 3+ but ended up waking at 6+, what made it worse was my dad had night shift so he couldnt give me a ride. which means that i was running late n had no time AT ALL to study. i thought iwas gonna fail. but i was wrong! thank God the paper was pretty easy..so i am confident that i can pass!!

i havent been trying at all 4 this exams. i dont know y...but i really didnt feel like studying. everytime when i pick up my book, i'll start thinking about other things..n i get very easily distracted. so i ended up procrasinating...n even if it was last min work, idk y, but i still couldnt concentrate. so i wont be surprise that i'll fail a lot of subjects this time. so...yeah i've been feeling realyl guilty..cuz i promised that i wont procrasinate after the common test. but i really hope this time

but i've learned from this lesson. i WILL change. yes pls remind me if u see me slacking. thx!

neways, after skool i went to the mall w/ a few frenz....n watched into the blue..it was SOOO gd! if u havent seen it, go watch it!!! haha i jumped a few times. but it was great. by far the best movie that i've seen in s'pore...well i've only seen 2 lol cuz i nvr had time. but seriously, it's worth it. k i shall stop promoting for them lol.

sooo....yeah i havent post in like 4EVER. yes i've been busy, but also lazy haha. but yeah....last few weeks...hmm..i dont seem to recall what happened...gosh i need to sleep more. my memory is getting worse. well i'm too tired to think.
oh yeah...last weekend... haha originally planned to study on sat w/ edden. li rong came..but haha i wasnt in the mood of studying so basically i was juz talking or staring at the papers. then sunday, again, wanted to study, but too many ppl, again distracted. but it was fun. edden n wilson were cracking up jokes..some were extremely lame..but it was still funny. yeah then went to mcdonalds...LOL the ketchup thing! my gosh i know u wont get it n i'm too lazy to explain. but juz a warning...if anyone ever tells u that ketchup+chilli+ice will warm the mixture up, DO NOT fall 4 it! do not put ur hands over it. or u'll suffer the consequence LOL! yeeep...it was a great day tho i kinda paid a cost...ha...i think i'll fail my maths paper. but oh well. this yr's exam doesnt count. but i'll certainly not do it again. n i shall not procrasinate.

neways, i'm done w/ writing. muahahaha...gonna go enjoy!

later doods!

GOD BLESS!

<3 mEixuAN

2005-09-16T20:28:00.000+08:00

this week had gone by sooo fast.

it had been alright...

we got the schedule 4 final yr exams...man it's in 2 weeks. ahhh!! i'm so nervous. it's gonna be a lot harder than the common test which i barely passed. sooo pleeeeeeeeaaaaaaaase pray hard 4 me!! i seriously need to at least pass. juz pass. that's all i'm asking 4.

siiiiggghhh... i miss my A's. miss my 100%. i can NVR get it here. urrggghh...hate catching up. n hate reading the stupid textbooks n doing the 10yr series. sux. that's like all that i do. man...s'pore education is so boring. i miss the states.

idk y but today, i felt so empty. i felt so weird. i keep thinking about america, especially after ms kang mentioned the new orleans. it's such a tragedy. nvr knew something like that would happen to that place. it's sad. but neways, then i thought about skool, church, my house, n all the great times that i've had there. i was waitng at the bus stop this afternoon n had nothing better to do than to listen to a guy's conversation. i didnt exactly listen to what he was saying but he had a really strong accent, or should i say, he was a very typical s'porean. then it suddenly hit me hard...
i am in singapore. n i'm staying here 4ever. or at least, 4 a very long time. i'm not going back to the states. at least not till i graduate jc, or poly. face the fact. i aint going back. y am i always thinking about it? what gd is it gonna do except make me miserable?
so yeah. i'm gonna stop missing the past n gonna start treasuring what i have right now.
i mean, i've realized that i complain a lot, n i'm almost always dissatisfied w/ what i have, even when i was in the states. i really should stop doing that.

there's a reason 4 everything. n everything is in God's wonderful plan. all these hardships that i'm facing r juz to make stronger. yes, i should always be thankful no matter what happens, because it's all 4 my gd.

n i shall persevere...i will nvr give up.

yep well yi's gonna use teh pc now. GOD BLESS ya all!!!

<3 mEiXuAn

2005-09-09T23:16:00.000+08:00

my goodness!! i NEEEED to do well in the final yr exams....or my dad's gonna be sooo furious.

i juz saw how much my tuition fee was today-S$1000++ (well it's w/ my sis). MAN....xing tong. i REALLY cant have anymore violin lessons. n i really g2 save up. not only on $$$ but also time. i cant afford to waste it.

siiigh...this week went by so fast. sad to say, it wasnt very productive. i didnt get to accomplish what i planned to do. i'm waaaaaaaaay behind schdule. which means in the next few weeks, i'm gonna have any extremely tough time. idk...everytime when i sit down w/ a book. i dont feel like reading it. maybe it's becuz i've worn myself the previous weeks n i need some rest. serious. i nvr had a real break since like what? the spring break? which was in feb? it sux. or maybe it's becuz the education here sux. it's so boring. all i do is read the textbook, then do the ten yr series. it's no fun at all. u juz memorize n memorize n learn how to answer the questions. haaaiiii.....

well pray 4 me u guyz, i need to stop wasting time. i CANNOT procrasinate. n pray 4 my end of yr exams. i NEED TO pass all my subjects, n i'm hoping that i can get some A's. thx!!

ok i g2g sleep. my parents r gonna yell at me soon. buh bai! GOD BLESS!

2005-09-06T21:06:00.000+08:00

our one week break is finally here!!!

it had been awesome so far. i've done lots of things that i usually wont be able to do like talking on the phone w/ kat (havent talk to her ever since she left s'pore!! miss her lots!!) n jiow...we didnt get to talk very long, but it was still gd. yeah...n i went online in the morning. omg...so many of my american buddies were on...n 4 the 1st time ever since i came back, i talked to soooo many americans. ahhhH!!! i miss the states soooo much!! n jiow said we're gaining back our accent....so u guyz betta call me more!!!!

neways, oh yeah, i excercised 4 the FIRST TIME every since i came back. was supposed to meet up w/ sharon but she went to the other stadium! lol. there r too many stadiums here.
man... i'm so fat n clumsy now. i cant run as fast anymore. gonna go joggin more. but it's so humid here...n i hate sweating. haaiiii i'm gonna have to get used to it.

hmmm last week...
was great too...was teachers day, went shopping w/ lynette after skool, and got a shirt but didnt get what i needed haha oh well. then went back to my pri skool. too bad i didnt get to see my teachers cuz they had conference. but saw my pri skool frenz, n was told that my teachers still remember me =)
oh yeah, n 4 bible study, we climbed the tallest mountain in s'pore....the bukit timah HILL. it's not even a hill lol. but it was still tiring n fun.

then last weekend...had a combine service 4 the 1st time w/ timothy group...was great, then ah guan gave us a treat...kentucky n pizza. haaaiiii...fast food. but it was still pretty gd..sad to say. haha i thought i was sick of fast food but i was wrong. then sunday, hung out w/ some church frenz at the mall. it was fun, but i still miss hanging out w/ kat jiwo n tracy!!!! man, that was great times. u guyz will like this place so much. it's really a great shopping place. u guyz betta come visit sometime. i'll bring u guyz around!

k i'm bored....n it's late, gonna go entertain myself w/ something else. sigggghhhh...i miss my msn messenger.

2005-08-30T11:00:00.000+08:00

guess what??????

i passed all my subjects except 4 chem. i'm soooo happy! i mean, i passed my chinese! how amazing is that? THANK GOD!!

neways, so we have a one week break next week. idk if it's a gd or bad thing. i guess it can be considered gd cuz i'll be able to get more sleep, and wont have to wear uniforms. but bad cuz it'll be the only week that i can really use to catch up on the yr's work. so it really isnt a break 4 me. but pray that i wont be lazy. cuz i REALY need to use my time wisely. only 4 weeks till the end of yr exams!!

k enuf of skool.....
last night, i couldnt fall sleep cuz i keep thinking of the times that we had in the states. i miss u guyz sooooooooo much! how i long to be back there w/ u guyz!! i wanna go back to visit soo bad! haaaaiiii...... how i wish i had $$. n time.

u guyz betta call me soon...cuz i'm losing my accent. i was presenting our project 4 chem n realized that my english had become singlish. AHHHHHH!!!! call me call me call me. or i'll call u guyz. email me ur no. n area code! call next week k? cuz i'll probably be at home the whole day. yeah...i'll be waiting!!

k i g2g, i'm @ skool now n the bell's gonna ring soon. so buhbai! GOD BLESS!!

2005-08-13T19:46:00.000+08:00

OMG!!!!!

common tests r in 3 days!!!!!!!!! i dont know how i'm gonna pass all my subjects!

pray hard 4 me guyz!!! thx!

n to my american buddies, u guyz betta call me soon....after the exams. cuz i'm losing my accent!! haha jk. it's juz cuz i miss talking to u all. if u lost my number, here>>>>> 62818100. i 4got what's my country/area code. u can ask winston or jiow. neways, i miss u guyz soooooooo incredibly much...n how i long to be back there w/ u guyz!

well i needa get back to my studies.

<3 u all!!! GOD BLESS!

2005-07-26T16:41:00.000+08:00

it has been exactly one week since i went to skool.

things had been going really well...made a lot of frenz n they're really nice tho some r pretty uhhh...perv? lol n guyz in my class except 4 a few(well there's only 10guyz)...woa... so much diff from the states! juz like what jiow said lol. n winston yes u r considered manly here. haha jk jk. hope my guy classmates wont see this. but well cant blame them. we only have one day of P.E. in a week. n most dont do sports. n that includes me. i'm dead. serious, i'm getting fat! needa find some time to work out. but ahhh...my schdule is full! y? cuz i have soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo extremely much stuff to catch up on. n common test/exams are in 2 weeks! OMG. pray 4 me that i'll do well! thx!

neways, maybe sadly, to u my states buddies, i dont regret coming back at all (well i had no choice haha). but yeah, altho i've lost sooo much(like u guyz), i've gained much more. my relationship w/ God grew so much stronger. n a few weeks ago, i realized what i've gotten outta the missionary trip. God prepared me 4 what was to come. He strengthened my faith in HIm. He made what seemed impossible possible (linda's passport, airplane, performance in gao xiong or something...etc.) yeah n that really helped me w/ what i would be going thru when i come back. n i learned to let go of myself n to be dependent on God. it feels great when i do that. what the Bible says is soo true. God gives peace. n serious. i feel peaceful. w/ what i had been going thru, i wouldve flipped or gone crazy or something if i werent a Christian. but God really pulled me thru all these. He guided me step by step n taught me to be dependent on him n to walk on the right path.

yeah...it is a great experience.

God's plan is SO wonderful!!!!

k it's late, g2g study. guyz, thx 4 ur prayers n continue to pray 4 me, especially 4 the exams!!! thx!! luving n missing ya all!!!!

buh bai! GOD BLESS!

<3 mEIxUaN

2005-07-18T18:05:00.000+08:00

i finally updated in xanga. go check it out.

2005-07-10T23:37:00.000+08:00

ok i dont have time to email u guyz sooo..i'll juz sum it all up here.

kathy, i got ur mail n also read ur email...yeah, i have sooo much to tell ya. but yeah, i'll keep praying 4 them. n i'll try to call u sometime...after we get the long distance card. n jiow i got ur email too. lol u look cute w/ ur hair up! n i'll take some pix tom of yi in her uniform. oh n i'm sending the letters to the youth group, u 2, n jessie a letter. so u guyz can take it as an excuse to bring her to church again. but yea..i'll pray 4 her.

yeah..but guess what? today's the best day so far in singapore. i played 4 the silent time n offering 4 the first time today...i didnt think i was ready 4 the worship so i didnt wanna go up there. but yeah..it was pretty gd. n as u all know, it's li's bday. so we got together w/ our cousins. it was sooo much fun! we talked n played cards. we laughed so much...till my stomach hurts n till i cant talk no more. yeah..it had been long since i have a great laugh.

but yeah..thx 4 all ur prayers! i can really feel God's presence. He has been guiding me n EVERYTHING that happens in my life seems to lead to a great cause. like 4 the physics test, i totally failed..dont think i got even 1 pt cuz they tested me on chapter 8-12 when i studied from 1-7. it totally sux..but they cant blame me..they nvr told which chapters to study when i asked. so yeha, they're giving me another chance. so by the end of that test, i'll be done w/ the whole yr n all i g2 do is review. yeah...n 4 those that they didnt test me on....i dont think i wouldve studied it if i started skool earlier. so yeah...it's all planned out. n 4 the worship too....well i dont really have time to explain cuz my parents r yelling at me to get off. so i juz wanan tell u guyz thank you. n dont worry about me too much. but continue to pray 4 me n my family. thx!!

alright g2g, buh bai! miss ya guyz!

2005-06-16T21:18:00.000+08:00

*sobs sobs* they're gone. all gone. we wont see each other 4 a long time.

i'm staying at my aunt's house 4 a few days cuz i dont wanna go home. it'll only remind of u guyz, and make me wanna cry. i feel so lonely. i'm so used to being around w/ u guyz 24/7. siiiiighh....

so yeah, i'm still really sick. my aunt asked me if my throat hurts. it does, but not as much as my heart. seriously. i miss u guyz like crazy!!!!

-winston, u promised that u're coming back w/ linda and maybe kathy in 2 yrs and we'll go to the shark hunting or adventure. whatever it's called. DO NOT 4get!! if u come, i'll go to ucla? whichever college that u want me to go to.

-linda, u're coming w/ winston!

-jocelyn, u're coming back this year w/ ur dad. n u'll come n visit us at least twice a yr right?!

-pan mu shi, she's coming back too....alternate w/ ur dad....hehe....

-kathy, siiiighh...i dont know when i'll see u but i think ur mum said u can come next summer! ^^ but yeah, earn $$$ 4 me to go to U.S.! and when i work, i'll pay u back!

but yeah, pray 4 me guyz. i took the exams today n totally bombed it. it was the WORST exams that i've ever taken altho the subjects that i took today (english n math) are my strongest subjects). i have no confidence that i'll get into that skool. but i want to go to zhonghua more than the other one. it's so much closer n it's a better skool (standard wise) but again, idk which skool is better 4 me. only God does. so yeah...i juz g2 follow his plans. i'll try my best.

anyways, enuf of those depressing things.

i'm sooo incredibly thankful that God gave us a chance to go on the mission trip cuz it trained me and increased my faith. we could really feel God's presence in us the whole time. there were lotsa zheng zhan but we had incredibly strong faith so we did not lose.

dang it. it's really late n i have exams in the morning tom. i needa go study n get enuf sleep. i'll try to finish it tom or something.

2005-06-09T21:25:00.000+08:00

hey u guyz!!! i'm @ malaysia!!! it's soooooo ridiculously humid. i'm not getting used to it. i DESPISE sweating. yeah...how did i survive 3 yrs ago? haaaiiii ya.... u know what? the only sports that i would be willing to do is swimming oooorrrr....nvm. that's it.

ok neways, i'll be going back to s'pore on sat night slash sunday morning n on sunday, we have 2 services...i'm not sure about the details but i'll try to get it n post it. so u guyz come if u can cuz it'd be sooo much fun!

AAAAAND....u get to see my bad haircut that i got today n my awesome-est frenz! alright? that's a great deal so COOOOOME.

alright i dont have too much time cuz i'm using kat's pc n she wants to talk to
"bubbles" muahahaah....

GOD BLESS U ALL!

<3 ya!

btw, i miss my usa buddies sooo incredibly much! n the restrooms there too! lol.

k buh bai!

2005-06-01T12:03:00.000+08:00

yaaaay! i <3 u winston! i finally get to go online! ^^

we're at taiwan right now, at the church. i have sooooo much to tell u guyz! this trip had been really really interesting. there were so many ridiculously weird problems w/ both the airplanes n linda's passport n stuff. but we knew it was zhen zhan so none of us were worried AT ALL. we juz gave everything to God. lol...Satan's so stupid. he will NVR be able to make us fall! yeah...i have a time limit so i cant talk too long. i'll definitely tell u guyz about everything when i get back.

but 4 now, we really need u guyz to pray 4 our mission trip, and also 4 me n my family w/ moving. thx! God Bless US ALL!!!!

<3 MeIxUAn

P.S. i'm miss all of my awesome american frenz soooo much! u guyz HAVE TO come n visit me sometime! <3 u all!

n anthony aka ma yi, i'm missing u!

2005-05-27T03:52:00.000+08:00

ohhhhhhhhh myyyyyyyyy gosssshhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

TODAY'S THE LAST DAY OF SKOOL IN U.S.!!!!

ahhhhhhh........i wanna cry = (

2005-05-24T04:56:00.000+08:00

wow. time flies. only 6 days in U.S. left.

weekend was awesome. lotsa hard work. but it was still great.

on sat, we had church practice from 9am-3somthing pm. then we went to cosco to get smoothie w/ linda n winston, then to kat's house 4 the family gathering. the gathering was probably one of the best gathering that i've been to. the 1st part where we had to sing and share was pretty boring but the 2nd part almost made me cry. we were discussing about problems that family face, things that parents need to work on. i almost cried. it's pretty hard to describe my feelings but i was joyful.

editz- i didnt get to finish this post cuz i was at skool

2005-05-19T09:58:00.000+08:00

editz- new pix posted!

11 days till i move & 4 days till my b-day!

can someone pleeeeaase stop the time???????
i'm not excited 4 my b-day AT ALL cuz it'll only mean that i'm going back soon!

maaan...i havent update in a VERY long time. there's juz so much things going on right now that i'm too lazy to write down everything. but i really should cuz those r memories that i dont ever wanna 4get.

Behold...this is probably gonna be the longest entry ever:

1st off....about 2 weeks ago...lan fang ah yi gave us a farewell thingy/ mission trip training during the weekend. It was like the funnest thing EVER. We went to an awesomely kool resort. It was like the BEST one that I've ever been to. (I'm using Microsoft word now.i give up. My pc is so messed up.) I might post the pix if I have time. But yeah...it was so much fun...we got like less than 6 hrs of sleep everyday n ate LOTS of supper n watched a movie every night. Buuut...I got sick afterwards ^^ It was worth it tho.

Then...during the week...hmm...we had our last orchestra concert. It was great. No we didn't sound great but it was awesome that it finally ended. Now we have free time in class! Hehe.

On Friday, we had our LAST YOUTH GROUP (4 me n my sis) w/ everyone. It was soooo much fun although we didnt do whatever I expected. But it was still great EXCEPT....it was the last time that I see Clayton = (..n he didn't even tell me. or maybe he attempted to but I was juz too busy talking. SRY clayton! N it was also when I found out that Sunday would be the last day that I see Jessie. I videotaped lotsa interesting convo n watched it that night. I got sooooo extremely upset. It totally woke me up from my stubbornness. I guess I didn't really feel nervous or sad cuz I didn't wanna face the reality. Buut...siiigh....i HAVE TO. Dood, that day it was only Jessie. A friend. One person. N I got really upset. Soon, it'll be EVERYONE, n my BESTEST FRIENDS! What am I gonna do then? I'll sob till I wont have anymore tears! Ahhhh....!! I'm gonna miss u guyz sooooo much!

Sat, I had the Tucson Jr strings. We did great. Chamber 1 was AMAZING. They played like pros. Too bad I wont be here 4 the next few yrs. I wanna go to that group! K soo...after that we went back to church n babysat. It was kool...we talked quite a lot.

Sun- last day that I see Jessie. She gave me a 4pg hand written letter n some gifts. It was touching. I'm gonna miss her sooooooooo much!

Then this week...skool was totally AWESOME. I've had so much fun. Orch was one of the best classes cuz all we did was talk n sign yrbooks. N other classes were pretty easy too. sarah, I HAVE TO take a pic w/ u! u hear me? We HAVE TO! I hope we can hang out sometimes after skool again be4 I leave. Neways, yrbook...I was only in it twice. But oh well. Oh I luv the random comments that ppl gave. N lol NO ONE write HAGS this yr whereas almost every1 did last yr. yaya! Yeah...they're all great. Mann...I'm gonna miss skool a lot too!

GREEEEEEEEAT...only 11 days left. I really wanna cry....

K talk about kinda happy things:
My birthday. What should I do? Should I have a party? I don't think I can cuz we have LOTS of practice this weekend. We REALLY needa practice. But it's probably my last bday in U.S. No....jkjk..I'm gonna come riiight? 4 college? Hehe...but still. We should do something! Oh Kat n jiow n tracy, we have to get our pix taken again! Ok sooo presents that u can get:
1. sadly...I haven't think about it yet...so idk. As long as it's not a stuff animal cuz my mum's gonna get mad. Ithink that's all I'll have to say. Ohohoh! U can get me the perfume from American eagle! It's like the best perfume ever! Naah... well whatever I don't really care. Iwanted an ipod from my parents but they said it's too expensive n yeah it is. So 4get it.

Okaaaaaay I'm done writing. See? I told u it's long.
*If u read all of it, comment in the tagboard! ^^ I bet there'll only be like 2. or less lol.

2005-04-21T08:04:00.000+08:00

new pix!! go to exits n it's under eye candy!

2005-04-19T00:53:00.000+08:00

wow...blogspot can be in chinese too?? i'm using my dad's pc..it's weird...

neways, i had a tremendously great weekend. fri sucked but sat n sun was awesome. me, kat, n yi went to jiow's house n watched a prince n me & mr. deeds. mr.deeds' is like the best movie ever. no not really. zoolander's THE best. then we went to kat's house 4 the family gathering. it was fun. oh yeah, we got free ice cream from new china again..muahaha.. but on the way back, me n my parents got into an argument which totally ruined my day. but oh well sunday made it up 4 sat. we went to the mall after church (again -_-") 3 times in a row. then rented first daughter n watched it @ jiow's house (again) it was an ok movie..didnt really like the ending. but dood it's pg rated? man...movies these days r messed up. how can lil kids watch that kinda movies? neways, so we went to liao po po's house 4 a farewell dinner. they're sooooo super nice. they're like one of the nicest old couples that i admire the most. that sentence was a lil weird but oh well. i wanna be like them when i get old. haha... ok so yeah, that's pretty much it.

oh yeah, on the way back home, my family got into an argument again. it was about having our own rooms. our s'pore appartment is really smaller, lots smaller than our appartment here. but we still have 3 bedrooms. they used to be a master bedroom, then me n my 2 other sis' room, then the study room. but dood, i CANNOT share a room w/ 2 other ppl now. it's fine if i share it w/ li, but NOT yi. we like totally diff things, she's a clean freak who yells @ the tiny-est trash that i left in her room, n i dont care if i have clothes on my chair that hasnt been washed in a week(or more). she doesnt needs absolute silence when she does her stuff but i listen to music all the time. so yea, it aint gonna work out. besides, i NEED privacy. i need a place where i can calm down everyday, after the day's stress, and talk to God. maan...y cant one of us juz use the study room? i would so rather have my own room to study then to study together in that one tiny studyroom of my dad's. what's worse is those 2 rooms added together can be the size of my room right now! i'm kidding. no they're not that small. but they're still really small. i'm so gonna have a hard time getting used to it. wish me luck!!!

2005-04-06T12:26:00.000+08:00

here are the pix that we took at the mall:

2005-04-04T08:58:00.000+08:00

time to update again cuz i dont wanna 4get what happened these few days. sooo skool...i hardly remember anything cuz it's the same old crap except 4 april fools day. man our newsletter was great. everything in there was fake but the front page looked so real. one was about the prom being held in the cost-effective gym...it was hilarious..ppl actually believed it. n the dress code article was pretty funny too. muscle shirts may only be worn if there is muscle to show off...otherwise, hit the weight room boys! any shirts that are made by a brand that begins with "Ho" and ends with"er" are not permiteed on campus due to teh teenage "I wanna be like the cool kid" sydrom, caused by this wretchedly expensive brand. haha that's Hollister. seriously, EVERYONE gets their clothes there. neways, so yeah...there are more april fools joke but i dont have time to tell ya everything.

so the weekend...sat was AWESOME! we went to church practice in the morning, then to the mall, then kohls, w/ linda, then to jiow's house. it was great shopping w/ linda. we tried on prom dresses n took some pix which i'll upload sometime. man..she's soooo skinny! she's 102lbs n i'm about 110 (i think) but she's like half a foot taller than me...or even more. it's so unfair! neways, so the dinner at jiow's house w/ the worship team (again) was great. we discussed about the mission trip. i'm soo excited about it! n then afterwards me, jiow, yi, were talking to wei n doria. it was so much fun talking to those college kids. i thought wei was a nice, quai kinda person but wow..i was surprise when i found out that he talks so much n he's bi! haha i'm jk. he's nkn is bi-wei. so yeah... me n yi slept over at jiow's. me n jiow talked till like 2am n we had to get up at 8 while yi fell asleep right when we made teh bed. it was great tho. soo this morning..church again. college ppl bbq 4 lunch. it was pretty gd xcept i had to microwave my hamburger cuz it was still kinda raw n my cheese melted cuz i overdone it. but it was still pretty gd. then we found out that it'll be our last time seeing MING! it's so sad. he's going back to cali n wont return till july. we'll be gone by that time. he cant go to the mission trip either cuz he has summer skool. neeeerd. neways, i'll miss his craziness! ok i'm done.
crap...i'm procrasinating again. 2 tests tom which i havent study at all...n the canterbury tales journals r due. i'm dead! ahhhh!!

2005-03-27T11:59:00.000+08:00

wow....had been a really long time since i posted. but i'm gonna make it short this time cuz i'm too lazy. sooo i juz came back from the dinner w/ the worship team ppl...actually juz about 2/3 of em, at sushi ten. food was delicious! we had so much fun..ming was calling josh every few mins updating him w/ the u of a basketball game. it was so suspensful i cant believe we lost! we were on the lead by like 9 pts on the last few mins. n then we ended up losing by 1 pt! ahh! neways, so yeah, dinner was awesome.

be4 dinner, we had the 5 hrs long practice 4 easter. it was great but pretty torturous. 4 the second part, we had to stand up the whole time. my back n shoulders hurt like crap in the end. i'm so nervous...i have quite a lot of solo parts this time. pray that the whole service will go well tom. oh n chuck came n helped us w/ our music. omg...he's sooo gd at everything! singing, piano, conducting, writing music, etc. it was awesome working w/ him. he kept complimented us, said we improved a lot in the last 3 months. i'm glad. Praise God 4 helping us!

so yeah...that was basically all about today.

as 4 the week...hmm...there was nothing much to tell u about cuz it's all the same xcept 4 the assembly. omg...it was sooo gross...close to the end, the vice principals had a mud wrestling. ahh! 40+ (i think) men wearing those wrestling clothes! burned my eyes! it was soo disgusting. but i guess it was kinda funny...one is 1 foot taller than the other. man...i cant believe they actually wanted to do that. vice principals. wow....

well i'm done 4 now
haha...this is not really a short post. too bad, bet none of u actually read the whole entry! soo doesnt matter!^^

2005-03-05T07:37:00.000+08:00

soooo....i'm updating again. sheesh...i'm getting lazier n lazier...

rodeo break was lotsa fun.
-went to phx w/ jiow n shopped. so much fun...there was like no one in the mall cuz they're all at skool. got perfume n lip gloss. that's it
-went to the china philharmonic orchestra....1st time seeing a real concert...the pianist langlang(i think) was crazily gd!
-went to park mall 2 times. watched MEET THE FOCKERS (it was hilarious! muahaha...we fockerized them!aannnd....i'm watchin u...) then we shopped 4 like ever...i'm talking about 7 hrs then 4 hrs.....urgghhh i fear shopping w/ my parents now. but oh well, at least i got lotsa stuff....on sale too!! ^^

however this week was pretty bad. i was sooo extremely tired cuz i went to bed around 12 every day. i didnt pay attention to class. for ex, on wed in bmt, ms. hobbs asked me a question. the answer was on the front board but i turned to the back. i was so clueless.... she gave me kinda a dirty look. yeah...so this week was basically like that. oh yesterday was a crap load of music/violin. ditch my worse classes, bmt n aerobic(this is not that bad but we had nature walk n i didnt wanna get sunburn.), and went cdo for the festival. i was dissapointed. i didnt get to see my frenz from other skools except ryan. i saw him but he didnt see me cuz he was far away. and i thought we did pretty bad but miraculous, we got an excellent. but yeah....that festival was soooo boring. we didnt get to meet other skool's ppl = (

neways, g2g to church now. buh bai!

2005-02-23T07:54:00.000+08:00

yaaay!! rodeo break's coming! i'm sooo happy! i need sleep! 4 some reason, i cant fall asleep till about 12 EVERYDAY. sux.
but neways....weekend was awesome. went to the steakhouse w/ my whole family, jiow, n her dad pastor ong, n lan fang ah yi's family(ming's an exception). it was sooo kool. it's like a lil town in teh middle of nowhere. the steak was really gd too. i was bloated n didnt get to finish the whole steak. was kinda a waste of $$ but glad that lucky(kat's dog) ate it. but yeah neways, we played kinda bad 4 worship on sunday. it's always like that when winston leads. *hint hint* we needa more practice! lol. after church, went shopping n got nothing. i wasnt in a shopping mood at all. all i wanted was to get home n finish my hw cuz i had sooo much that day. but i ended up reaching home at 6pm. didnt start hw till like 8 ish cuz we had dinner n watched a movie..i couldnt resist myself. then stayed up till 12 doing hw(reading the once and future king)..that was the only hw that i had too. we had like a week to do it. man...i'm such a good procrasinator. i needa stop!
i'm so gonna screw up when i go back to s'pore. last night, my mum's friend who went back called. she told her about her kids, how they really miserable n struggling now. they were held back a yr. sux 4 them. but ya know what? the others that went back r like that too. but hope that me n my sisters will be diff. i really dont wanna be held back. i wanna go to a gd skool. i needa stop slacking n work hard. pray 4 me that i wont be lazy.
AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really really really really dont wanna go back!!! it's gonna be sooo diff! so stressful! so humid! so crowded! so much singlish! so fustrating! ahhhhhhh!!!!
i was kinda excited at 1st, but not nemore. the only thing that i'm excited about is that i get to see my relatives n frenz again. but THAT'S IT!! man! i'm gonna miss this place soooo much! i'm having a great life here. i'm very content. i have an awesome house, bestest frenz, great church, gd grades, n gd everything! i dont wanna move back.................

alright enuf of that. skool. great so far not really. got my BMT report card back today. dang..i have like 5 missing assignments. why? she gave the whole instructions so i turned it in in the folder instead of the basket. so now i have a B. i was so pissed. but oh well, talked to her, she's gonna change it. so gd. oh about this morning, really should've slept in cuz the resgistration was totally useless 4 me. i wont be here next yr. so y bother? it was so boring. she repeated the same thing like 10 times. jk. not that much. but it was a pointless 3 hrs super boring presentation. but i still filled out the resgistration forms neways. i will be taking eng10pre-ap, pre-cal honors, physics honors, world history(ithink) ap, french 1, n tennis.

alright i'm done writing. this is such a long post. but oh well. zai jian!

2005-02-16T07:03:00.000+08:00

Updatez: here r the pix...http://community.webshots.com/user/pinkpinkies104 ^^

i've been on a lot lately, but was too lazy to blog..hehe..

so...last week....empasize on thurs n friday....was the busiest days of my life! had soooo many things due on fri (lab report, medival project, quiz etc..) n i had jr strings too from 6-9. so i stayed up till 1am n missed the 1st period to finish it. sooo stressful. but guess what? we didnt have to turn it in that day cuz our teacher was depressed about the suicide thingy. so much 4 teh stress!
speaking about suicide....i dont know if i wrote it in here, but 2 ppl commited suicide 2 weeks ago. a lots of my teachers kinda shut down that day. but it's so sad....i'm mad too about that. those ppl are soo selfish. dont they care about their family n friends? half of the skool was mourning. also, last fri, a gd friend of theirs commited suicide too but was saved. it's crazy man...our skool ppl r so messed up. i need u guyz to pray 4 those ppl. n to my frenz n family or whoever, if u ever want to commit suicide, come to me. i'm sure i'll do whatever to help u so that u wont do it...even if it takes beating u up so that u wont be able to move....haha...i'm jaykaying....i definitely wont do that. but seriously, come n talk to me or something. i'll try my bestest to help. ^^
neways, so where was i? oh...friday. after, skool, not really after skool cuz i had to leave early 4 violin lessons. after that, we went to church, then to U of A to play 4 them, then to bowling. it was so much fun! i'll post the pix up sometime.
As 4 sat, we went to church n practiced 4 like ever, then to kat's house n watched mulan n mulan 2. mulan 2 wasnt as gd as the 1st one..but was still alright. we had so much fun. played the 24 game again. gosh...i swear we're addicted to it! lol...then went home.
Sundaay....did pretty much nothing except going to church then going home to do hw n chat. my high heels were killing me....got me huge blisters.
Then yesterday, valentines day. i stayed home. dont ask...long story. but lotsa interesting things happened. i was happy yet i felt sad. again...it's a long story.
N today....it's the same old thing. skool. hw. online. chat. eat. sleep.

n now i'm done...wow...what a long post. didnt take me that long either. haha. well i'm outta here! GOD BLESS YA ALL! buh bai!

2005-02-09T05:30:00.000+08:00

yaay! it finally works again!

neways, things have been going on really well. Last weekend, tho we had practice 4 a really really long time (like 5hrs), we went to kat's house afterwards 4 a chinese new yrs celebration. i didnt know it was 4 new yrs till i went n saw so many ppl there. but there were only a few that's around my age...like allen, anthony, n amy. we played some card games. 24 was awesome...i was on fire! kinda..haha. but poor kat, she didnt get it when we all got it, but when we didnt, she did. n as usual, ant sucked at spoons....lol. it was my 1st time playing connect 4(whatever it's called) n i won once outta the 2 times i played w/ the help of ant. it was so funny..i didnt even know that i won till he told me. but i lost also, thx to his "great" advice, to allen. he's sooo gd at it. he was unbeatable. i'm not surprised tho, cuz he's one of the top students in my biology class. yeah, neways, it was so much fun! we should have more of these gatherings!

so about chinese new years....i dont think it'll be that fun this yr n i doubt i'll even get $$. well actually i did huh..from church...it was 2 bucks! haha. was my 1st one too. dont know if i'll have a third or even a second cuz we're not going to go bai nian...juz staying home...siiigh.

As 4 skool......oooomyygosshhh!! my project's due this fri n i havent even picked up my book!! i'm so dead! wish me luck! aw..dang it! i procrasinated again! urrghh.. well i should stop now n go to the library be4 the books r out cuz a lot of ppl r doing that too. so later! GOD BLESS YA ALL!

P.S. i posted one more pic 4 the retreat.

2005-02-01T09:50:00.000+08:00

haha i'm posting again.

i'm soooo excited!!! we (church/worship group n pastors) might go on a mission trip to the asian countries in may!!! i cant wait! i hope we can really go. it's such a perfect timing too cuz as ya'all know, i'm going back to s'pore in june & my chinese suck right now. so it might help! so yeah, keep praying that we can go!

also, i have an audition this thurs 4 chamber 2 (junior strings) i really hope that i would get in. pray 4 me! thx!

oh n i got my transcript today. thank God i got a ranking of 14/500+!! ^^

n uhh...about moving back....siiighh....i'm stressing about it, yet not doing anything. i have so much time but i always procrasinate so i wont have time to study at all. or when i do, i'll juz go online or watch tv or do something stupid. ahhh i'm such a retard! i really pray that i'll use my time more wisely.

we got the 2004 church pix yesterday. i've changed so much. from a nerd, to a nerd, to punkish, to uhh..idk, but not a nerd anymore. but it's bad....i WANT TO BE A NERD AGAIN! study like a nerd! i dont care if it's NERDY. all i know is that it's much better than laying my ass off doing nothin. i really dont wanna go to a sucky skool n get sucky grades. ok i'm getting too negative here, wasnt what i originally wanted to do. but well, the pix r such great memories. man...i'm gonna miss church soooo much when i go back! i'm juz sooo grateful that i have the opportunity to know GOD. it's a gift beyond comparison. i love it so much! thank u God!! haha... i wonder what kinda person i'll be if i didnt know Him. haaa...dont even wanna think about it. but yeah, God helped me so much these years. i'm juz so thankful. i LUV Him!!

well i'm done now....g2 get back to hw....dont wanna procrasinate nemore. baaiiii!!!

2005-01-25T07:37:00.000+08:00

i've finally create a new blog! it's so awesome. i really really ridiculously like it! LOL. u probably dont get it. but well... i'm trying to stop using the word, "love," the wrong way, so i replaced it w/ the zoolander phrase! haha...

neways, time to update ya on my life! wow..havent done that in a long time cuz of those asinines that trashed my previous blog. hope that they wont find this!

i'll juz write in bullets cuz i g2 start my hw soon.

sat:
-didnt go to the winter formal
-went to church 4 practice
-broke my violin but luckily kat's dad fixed it -phew-
-rented n bought 4 DVDs
-watched I Robot n Around the World in 80 days n Haunted Mansion
sun:
-went to church
-went to dad's frenz' house which was in the mountains. ahh...was so much fun when we had to drive on the dirt road to his house. it was dangerous cuz the road was pretty narrow n there were cactus by the side, n had to go down slopes n turns n there were rocks. was kinda like Indiana Jones ride in disneyland.
-his kids r sooo cuute! i miss em...
-took us like an hr (highway) to get home.
-did hw
mon(today):
-skool
-spent like 2 1/2 hrs making this

n that's all...time 4 hw, dood i have soo much! wish me luck! ahhhh i've procrasinated! again! daang!!!!